Hello Cue,
I think many people make the mistake of thinking that being a Christian makes one a doormat. Dont feel bad for not looking at him the same way, this person put your health at risk. Nobody expects you to open your arms to someone who has been unfaithful...I do hope ( however) that you find some type of absolution. Let God help you through this so you and your child can heal, and I know this might be hard, but please don’t let bitterness and resentment take over. I have seen people let those emotions run their lives, and the only thing they live for is revenge. It not only affects them, but their family and friends too. Life is too short for that.
I pray that you find peace..and with God’s guidance, I believe that you will.

TAKE CARE,
BRIGID