Hawleysangel... Your message realy touched me. I was married when I was still in my teen years to an incredible woman. We were married a very short time.. less than two years. I recently started the process of having that marriage nullified but I find that I can’t. I think of the pain that I caused her.. not unlike the pain that you describe.

I tell myself that there are as many reasons for divorce as there are for marriage these days. I tell myself all sorts of things to easy my burden. None of it matters. I inflicted the worst pain that I could on her with 4 words. "I want a divorce". I would never have believed that those 4 words could have hurt another person so deeply. I feel your pain and I am praying for you.

My divorce was 20 plus years ago. The only thing that I have learned so far is we must pay for bad choices and hopefully the bad ones help us make better ones.

I choose to never put myself in a position to hurt another person like that again. The price that I have paid has been high. I feel you 100%.

God be with you always.