My heart goes out to you and the sufferings you have endured. I never thought the way you do, yes, our faith is the only faith that gives meaning to suffering. I am learning from you. Lately, I have been thinking about the souls in Purgatory especially the soul who is there the longest and I have been praying for that soul. Sorry about your adult children leaving the faith; my cousins also left and they in turn are taking their nieces, nephews and inlaws with them. It is like a bad skin disease and just one person in my family is spreading this false religion and she managed to take many relatives with her. What a shame. It really bothers me. Pray for them little flower, thanks.