I am still having a hard time coming back to the Church of my birth. I have been in and out of the church a good many times over the years. I can’t say I have totally lost my faith, but I find it hard being in a church. I was baptized, made my communion, confirmation in the Catholic Church. I attended a catholic school 11 out of 12 years. After high school, I entered the convent. Left after 3 years; was married (same church) when I was 22. After 8 years of marriage and 2 children, I was divorced - ex-husband was an arsonist. I also got my annulment. My children attended the same school and church as I did. While they were in grade school, I was very active in the church: lay minister, lector, ran camera, president of organization. In my mid 30’s I stopped attending church. That was 20 years ago. I have only been in a catholic church about a dozen times in all these years. Part of me wants to go back to the church and part of me doesn;t. I don’t know what to do? Any suggestions?