What an honest and open post. I admire you. You were still young when returning to God and the full Catholic religion. Many persons not only you have made mistakes, believe me I have. I pray my spiritual life becomes as full and open as yours. Pray for me, Carmen. You are an example of a good soul. As a side note: I too have arthritis in my left ankle, the pain, stiffness from the knee down. This is a little pain to bear in redemption of souls, mine or others. Thank you for a nice post.