God In Our Midst (False Piety, True Contrition--August 2003)
Have you ever had to make amends for a wrongdoing?
|Date: 9/9/2003 11:01:27 PM|
Name or Pseudonym: littleflower
Subject: Freedom in forgiveness
After 12 years of marriage I became physically ill and permanently disabled. My husband divorced me. He took everything material probably thinking I was going to die. I even had to fight to keep my children. The pain and anger I felt cannot be described...it ate me up morning, noon and night...I was totally bombarded with this anger . When I realized that I was the one hurting myself I prayed desperately to the Holy Spirit to help me because I felt I was dying inside. I had 2 young children to raise and I wasnt helping them with this obsession of anger.One day after I prayed that I could "get over it" I had this inspiration to call my X and tell him that I was sorry for ever hurting him in thought, word or deed and asked him to forgive me. I couldnt believe these words were coming out of my mouth. I know it was the Holy Spirit.
After I finished making amends I felt the most wonderful peace and "lightness of Spirit". I was relieved of the resentment and (I am ashamed to say) hatred of this man....not to mention I think he was in shock also! Thank You dear God.