I am not a catholic, though I am in RCIA. "Graduation" is coming up, and I’m not sure that I am ready to leave this stage. I am a spiritual person; in that, I believe in God and I am inspired by God’s existence. However, studying Catholicism has yet to bring a transformation. Personal growth does not come easily, I know, but "God’s transforming love" has not come to me through the classes. I realize the fault must be mine. I realize that I must be reluctant to open up. Any advice?