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It would have made a screaming
good novel.
In 1998, one week after returning
to the Catholic faith of
her youth, and only two days
after having her marriage blessed
by the Church, Anne Rice, author of
The Vampire Chronicles, fell into a diabetic
coma. Waking up in the hospital,
she was bewildered at the prospect of
returning to her Catholic faith.
Anne, 67, wasn’t the only one. Millions
of her fans were taken aback by
her conversion as well. Her Vampire
Chronicles were only one part of her
oeuvre. She identified strongly with
her character, the vampire Lestat, calling
him “an ideal, a genderless giant.”
And yet the first two books of Anne’s
trilogy on the life of Christ are so good
that no one can deny she’s a writer in
her prime. Her recent memoir, Called
Out of Darkness: A Spiritual Confession,
details her transformation from an awkward
girl named Howard who wanted
to become a nun, through her years
away from the Church, to her unconventional
embrace of Catholic sensibilities.
It’s quite a read.
Anne’s early experiences with personal
loss prepared her for her own
brush with death. “Death had always
been a part of my life,” she says. “I lost
my mother to alcoholism when I was
14. I lost my daughter to leukemia
when she was not yet six. I was never
a person who wasn’t aware that death
could come and take someone. I always
knew that no one gets out alive.”
Life After Vatican II
Anne didn’t die, but she didn’t remain
the same, either. The dehydration
involved in a diabetic coma causes the brain to shrink, and recovery includes
the brain rewiring itself. It’s not uncommon
to experience confusion after such
trauma. In this case, the physical effects
were compounded by the changes
Anne found in the Church she had
embraced.
In Called Out of Darkness, she recalls:
“I felt frightened by my new commitment
and it was only with great difficulty
that I went back to Mass. I grieved
inordinately for the old Latin—the
beautiful Tridentine Mass on which I’d
been brought up—and it seemed an
immense tragedy to me that the service
was so changed, and that the magnificent
hymns of my childhood were
almost entirely gone.”
The majority of Catholics today have
never attended a Tridentine Mass. The
priest stands on the high altar with his back turned to the people. Incense is
liberally used in purification rites on the
altar, directed at both the priest and
the congregation.
Although the Scripture and the homily
may be in English, the words of the
liturgy are in Latin, and often sung by
a choir located in a loft out of the sight
of the congregation, as if the words
themselves emanated from an angelic
choir.
Anne’s mother had taken her to daily
Mass frequently as a child, and the
sights and sounds fed her imagination
in a way that school never did. Anne
was a dreamer who struggled with academic
tasks, and her love for the
Church increased while the alcoholic
chaos at home intensified.
In the 40 years after Vatican II, the
arguments and implementations of
liturgical solutions have become a regular
part of the confusion of being a
Catholic. It’s easy to see why the
changes would grate on the sensibility
of someone who had looked to the
liturgy for stability. The good news is
that all of the service is in the vernacular,
so the changes are intelligible, if
not entirely welcomed.
The architectural glory of Anne’s
New Orleans childhood remained. Her
reverence for beauty had always sustained
her. In place of Latin responses
chanted on her behalf by a choir, Anne
found herself speaking aloud the
prayers and the creed in her mother
tongue. Meaning began to return to
the liturgy. The juxtaposition provided
enough support for her to continue
her journey, even as details emerged
that troubled her deeply.
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“I was not aware of the fights between
liberals and conservatives, the arguments
and the litmus tests they apply.
I am amazed. This requires a recommitment
every day to the Gospels. History
shows that Christianity is filled
with quarreling,” Anne observes.
She claims she knew nothing of
the post-conciliar Church. In fact,
she contends that her ignorance of
the arguments in the current Church
was a miracle. If Anne had known of
the Church’s firm opposition to the
ordination of women or the clerical
sex-abuse scandal or even the new
“theology of the body” and gender-complementarity
theory, all of these
things would have disheartened her so
much that she might not have returned
to active faith.
And, in a twist that may be difficult
for nonbelievers to swallow, Anne
found that her lack of knowledge humbled
her enough to receive the grace
of faith. She points out that she does
not know what God knows—none of
us do.
And in acknowledging the divine
knowledge—and bracketing her own
knowledge as incomplete—Anne submitted
herself to Jesus in love and trust.
All she knew was that she believed that
Jesus was present in the Eucharist, and
that she recognized his love for her
and she responded.
“I returned to Holy Communion
because I believed in it. The drive was
so overwhelming that I didn’t ask anyone,
not even my husband,” Anne says.
“I had to wrestle with a lot of questions.
Could I be a good Catholic if I
didn’t believe in Original Sin? Finally,
I realized it didn’t matter what I personally
thought. God would work all that
out. I believed in God in the Eucharist,
and I would try to work my very best
to be true to that impulse.”
When Anne and her husband, Stan,
moved back to New Orleans in 1988,
her estranged Catholic relatives welcomed
her with open arms. This was a
surprise to her, and as she spent time
with them, she found that they were
not doctrinaire at all. The Catholic prohibitions
of her youth—the banned
books, the shunning of sinners, the
insistence on purity of faith and practice—had disappeared during her
bohemian youth.
Still, Anne’s social milieu—then and
now—is not inclined to conversion.
Stan never renounced his atheism
before he died in 2002. Their son,
Christopher, is openly gay. Many of
Anne’s fans and friends are not inclined
to see the Catholic Church in a positive
light. It’s easy to see how misunderstandings
might arise. At no time has
she directly challenged them to
renounce their beliefs in favor of hers.
Stan might have been a little surprised
when Anne walked into their
bedroom in December of 1998 and told
him she had gone back to the Catholic
Church and that they needed to be
married again.
Anne remembers, “He immediately
recognized the wisdom of the idea. He
had a deep respect for standing before
the tribe and proclaiming the vows.
He was very moved during the ceremony in the New Orleans parish I’d
gone to Mass in as a schoolchild, St.
Mary’s.”
And although Christopher is not as
interested in the supernatural as his
mother is, there is a mutual respect
between the two which is shown in
the restraint they use publicly when
discussing his sexual orientation and
Anne’s faith. She speaks out pointedly
about gender issues in her memoir,
holding that the conservative viewpoint
on sex and gender is unsupported
by Scripture.
Conversion always comes with a price,
and the real challenge to Anne’s faith
was in her writing. For the 20 years
before her conversion, she told stories
about vampires, witches and mortals in
tales with sensuous plots and detailed
attention to themes that many devout
Catholics have found offensive, including
pseudonymous erotica.
Her staff not only helped her to market
her books, but also put on an
annual vampire ball in New Orleans.
The vampire Lestat wasn’t just a character,
but a franchise.
In Called Out of Darkness, Anne notes
that the years before her conversion
were filled with pilgrimages and religious
artifacts. She traveled the world
and was always drawn to the churches.
She purchased statues and books on
religion, especially on Jesus. “I was
Christ-haunted,” she says.
Attentive readers noted her increased
attention to questions of heaven, hell
and redemption. Her autobiographical
novel, Violin, published in 1997, featured
a middle-aged woman with three
sisters and a devout father. Her character
lost her only child to childhood
cancer. In it, Anne poses the question,
“Can suffering be redemptive?”
Critics and readers were less than
enthusiastic about this novel, a fact
that still bothers her. Anne has wondered
if the protagonist were a man,
whether the novel would have gotten
better reviews. It seemed to her an
example of sexism. But what if her
“vampire” readership was merely
unsure what to make of a very personal
novel that exposed the author’s inner
conflicts?
Anne’s health crisis and recovery did
not slow her writing much. She
pounded out about two novels a year.
But she admitted that her conversion
caused her to see her
writing in a new light. This gave
her pause as she approached
the altar for Communion each
week, pondering how her faith
was expressed in her talents.
In 2002, after writing several
novels about vampires and
witches to mixed reviews, Anne
decided that she needed to
devote her writing entirely to
Jesus Christ.
“Everything was smooth sailing
when I did this in early 2002. I
didn’t know Stan would die. [He
was diagnosed with a brain tumor
within weeks of her decision, and died
nearly five months later.] I was going
back to the spiritual commitment of
my childhood, when I wanted to be a
nun, to give my life to Christ.”
Since she was now deprived of her
husband’s comforting presence and
suddenly the sole breadwinner, it would
have been understandable to give up
such pious thoughts. Further, she had
already signed to write Blood Canticle,
the last of her vampire books.
Gamely, she tried to unite Lestat’s
character with her own newfound aspirations.
The book begins with Lestat
saying, “I want to be a saint. I want to
save souls by the millions. I want to do
good far and wide. I want to fight evil!”
Anne says of this book, “That last
book is the most densely theological of
the vampire ones. The hero resigns as
a hero. He opts on the side of life. And
it’s an uneasy book; there is a sense of
the condemnation of the hero for himself.”
Indeed, Lestat decides in the end
that he is a “magnet for the damned.”
The break is a clean one. She recently
informed fans on her Web site that she
would not undertake a Christian vampire
novel.
Stan’s death was heartbreaking, and it
took her years to produce Christ the
Lord: Out of Egypt, a novel written as
Jesus might have thought of himself, a
first-person narrative. It is an edgy
approach that made many conservatives nervous. But most are won over by
the power of her prose and her careful
attention to biblical details.
Anne was shocked by the biblical
scholarship she read. She found that the
sources for less orthodox historical
scholarship on the Bible were less than
convincing. She began to gravitate
toward more conventional scholars like
N.T. Wright and John A. T. Robinson.
The more she read, the more she was
energized by the project.
“All of my early conceptions were
shattered as I made my way through all
of the scholarship. I was amazed by
the power of Scripture to come at you.
It’s inexhaustible and explosive! I’m
knocked on my back on the road to
Damascus every day.”
Anne’s portrayal of Jesus has received
generous praise from believers and nonbelievers
alike. She worked hard to woo
Christian readers to her new work, placing
ads in journals such as First Things and Our Sunday Visitor. She answers
every e-mail on her Web site, thousands
each year.
She has no regrets about her past
writings. After all, Lestat is a hero to
both men and women, and Anne
refuses to condemn him in any way,
noting that all of her books have
integrity as steps along her spiritual
journey.
I ask her if she still feels genderless.
She responds, “I don’t really understand
gender, what it means. I still feel
basically genderless. Nothing stands
between me and Jesus Christ that has
to do with gender. Those technicalities
exist on the periphery. If you think
about it, I see the Catholic Church as
genderless. There are no heights to
which female saints could not attain,
and nothing they could not tackle.”
She continues, “The Church transcends
gender and that’s what God is
asking of us, to transcend anything
that is a barrier to love. We are called to
find Christ in other people, whether
they are male or female. We are called
to embrace everyone.”
Called Out of Darkness was written
after the second book of her trilogy on
the life of Christ, Christ the Lord: The
Road to Cana. While she has critical
momentum on her side, she is taking
her time with the research for the last
book.
“It’s a book that will take a lot of
time and meditation, involving all his
miracles and then the Passion. I have to
choose what scenes I am going to use.”
Indeed, the passion of Christ may in
fact prove to be her magnum opus.
Fans of her earlier thrillers will be
eager to hear of her newest project:
Songs of the Seraphim, metaphysical
thrillers about angels working with
humans. She calls the series an opportunity
to “let off some imaginative
steam.” The first one will be out in
October, and she hopes this series might
appeal to her “vampire” readers.
“I’m born again as a Christian
writer, writing these novels about the
angels.”
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